Cherish Your Life

Live or Die, Make your Choice


December 22nd, 2007

Everyone i ever need, ends up leaving me @ 11:43 pm



I'm not comin' back
I'm not gonna react
I'm not doin' shit for you.
I'm not sittin' around while you are tearin' it down around us.
I'm not livin' a lie while you swim in denial
'Cause you're already dead and gone
You leave me out on the curb just like everyone else before you.

Welcome to my world
Where everyone I ever need always ends up leaving me alone.
Another lesson burned
And I'm drowning in the ashes
Kicking
Screaming
Welcome to my world

I don't care what you think I'm not seeing a shrink.
I'm not doing this again.
I'm not another student or a mother to take your shit out on
So let's see what you got, let's see what you're not
And what ever else you pretend
You've defended my intentions long enough

Welcome to my world
Where everyone I ever need always ends up leaving me alone.

Another lesson burned
And I'm drowning in the ashes
Kicking
Screaming
Welcome to my world

So here I am again.
In the middle of the end.
And the choice I wish I made
I always make too late

Welcome to my world
Where everyone I ever need always ends up leaving me alone.
Another lesson burned
And I'm drowning in the ashes
Kicking
Screaming
Welcome to my world.

My world
My world (welcome to my world)
My world
My world (welcome to my world)
My world
Welcome baby.
 

December 10th, 2007

Chapter Black, Episode 1 @ 08:35 pm

This is Episode 1 of what i call the Chapter Black series, Chapter Black is about the worst sins of humanity and how cruel our world can be and how i believe the human race has only a couple of hundred more years left before we wipe ourselves off the face of the Earth.

 

November 26th, 2007

(no subject) @ 08:58 pm

What do you see when you look into a mirror?

You probably see the your reflection.

You see a corrupt world which has been tarnished by false religions and greed.

Or you lie to your self and you see a perfect world with a god that knows and loves every aspect of your life.

When I look in to the mirror I do not see what you see

I do not see the reflection of a broken society

I see the land of neverness.

I see the endless fields of a perfect world.

I see the broken cliffs of a failed race which has perished so that a new race may rise up and take grasp of the perfect world.

I see the glisten as the moon glows over the fields revealing the flawless society which will never be.

When I turn my head and look at the world I live in I see wastelands of warlords and greed driven men.

I see the beaten down race of what could have been the perfect means of life.

I see the burning failure of self induced evolution which our society has tried to create.

I see death looked upon as means of salvation and life as damnation.

The human race does not look past the mirror enough to be able to reflect the land of neverness.
 

October 28th, 2007

Love and Hate are twisting together @ 10:48 am

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Tell me my last resort

The Trail of Screams (Haunted house i work for) is kicking ass this year as an atraction, however it has caused me a lot of pain both mentally and physically which stacks with losing my girlfriend who i still love unfortunatly. Friday night was the worst of it though, while acting my machete slipped from my hand and hit a girl in the head. She was crying and i felt so awful and i still do. Then i got bitched at by Brandon(Not Pearce) , he is the gatekeeper for the TOS, and he was saying how im not supposed to chase groups. Then i mentioned that my manager knew i did it and was ok with it and he said "yeah well didn't you hit a girl in the head with a machete though?" and i just wanted to hit him right there and now im not sure what to do, im just falling apart all over.

 

October 14th, 2007

You destroyed my soul, Now i'm destroying my body @ 12:11 pm

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When you left me i will admit that i was depressed and pathetic. Then once the Trail of Screams started i took out my anger on the customers, then one night my sister finally snapped my out of my slump. She sat me down and told me to get over it, that i was wasting my time on you, that i wasn't being given the respect i deserved for everything i've done for you. At first i wanted to hit her,hearing someone talking bad about you like that angered me, but then the more she talked the more sense she made. I am wasting my time mourning over you and it is time to get up and move on. So after that i let my anger out more on the customers at the Trail of Screams and now i am battered, bruised, bleeding, and sore. I have bruises down my arms from pounding on walls and being pounded on by customers, i have a gash in my leg from where my scythe slashed open my knee, and all my muscles are so sore i have passed out twice. But it is all worth it to get out all the anger you and everyone else in my life caused.
 

September 30th, 2007

i'd do anything @ 01:29 pm

 

September 23rd, 2007

DE-Evolution @ 05:55 pm



We are all doomed, the human race will die. Humans are horrid creatures that are greedy, thoughtless, and do not care about anyone.
 

August 23rd, 2007

Click Thud Thud Click @ 08:55 pm

This is a short story written, enjoy.

Click, thud, thud, click…

The eerie echoes seemed to be the only noise in the city. Even the sound of two pairs of running footsteps was drown out by the unending and steady pace of their pursuer.
“Miles, we can’t run from him forever!” whispered one of the chased. Her long, bleach-blonde hair disheveled and blown about as they frantically avoided being caught.
Miles said nothing. He knew how true those words were, he understood completely that running would only get them so far. He also knew that underneath his black leather trench coat waited a means of self-defense. He was also painfully aware of how futile that attempt would be.

Click, thud, thud, click…

No matter how fast they ran, it always sounded as those that unnerving clicking was just behind them, slowly taking each turn they do.
“In here, Sarah,” Miles exhaled, pulling her by the wrist down a small alley and into an opened window.
Whatever this building was by day, tonight it was shelter. Or, should a single mistake be made, it would be their tomb.

Click, thud, thud, click…

The sound past right by the alley, and continued on. Gradually the clicking faded into the distance, and several minutes of complete silence took its place.
“I think he’s gone,” Miles whispered, daring to break the silence.
“Yeah… I think you’re right,” Sarah agreed, clutching his arm tightly.
“There’s a good chance he’ll be back. He knows he lost track of us around here. I need to get you out of here safely, Sarah.”
“But Miles, what if he’s still out there now? It isn’t safe yet,” said Sarah in her meek voice. Miles couldn’t help but feel her quivering. “What if… What if this is the end?”
“The end?” Miles turned to face Sarah, putting his free hand on her shoulder and looking her straight in the eye. “Sarah, after all we’ve been through? We’ve faced off against him before and survived, we’ve traveled across oceans, trained ourselves in forgotten arts, rode through the desert, saved each other’s lives more times than I can count… We’ve survived too many times to stop now.”
As trying as it was, Miles forced himself to smile. Sarah returned his gaze with a hesitant smile of her own. The only thing important to Miles now was to get her out of this unharmed. She has always been so vulnerable, so scared, but she’s never left his side, and he owes her for that. He leaned in and kissed her.

Click, thud, thud, click…

It started again; so suddenly both Miles and Sarah jumped with surprise. And it was close. Both of them backed up against the wall opposite their entrance, the opened window. Sarah cowered behind Miles, who had withdrawn a small knife attached to the end of a long chain; his own invention.
It was only a moment before they could see his face through the window. His long, wickedly brown hair flowing behind him in the night breeze, his goatee tied, his mouth curling into a sinister grin. But his eyes were the only thing you could concentrate on. Pale, green eyes that pierced straight through you, nothing but pure hatred visible within them. Miles kept a steady glare directly into the face of his pursuer, he didn’t even notice that he had crossed the barrier of the wall somehow, and was standing in the same room as them.
“Shyal…” Miles said slowly, trying to show as little of the fear inside him as possible. He made sure he had Sarah covered. Miles was prepared to die to save her, and it seemed likely it would come to that.
“Heh, heh, heh…” Shyal’s voice was crackling with malice. His long, deep brown trench coat was revealed now, sleeves almost covering his elongated hands. One of which perched atop a beautiful wooden cane.

Click, thud, thud, click…

Shyal took two steps closer to them. The distance was minimal, and within any moment a fight to the death could begin.
“I’ll make you a deal, Shyal…” It was hard for Miles to speak, his throat dry and his mind racing. “Take me. Do as you will with me, but spare Sarah. She has nothing to do with this,” Miles pleaded.
“Oh, I wouldn’t be so sure of that, Miles…” Shyal placed extra emphasis on Miles’ name, as if saying it was some sort of joke to him.
Before Miles could respond, before he even could react, he heard the sound of steel and felt a blade against his neck. But Shyal had not moved; he just stood there with that horrid smirk on his face, soaking in satisfaction from his imminent doom.

“Sorry, Miles,” said Sarah over his shoulder.
He completely froze, both mind and body, unable to process what had just happened.
“Sarah?”
“Heh, heh, heh…” Shyal’s enjoyment at this agony was sickening.
“But why, Sarah? Why would you side with him? What happened?”
“’What happened?’ Nothing happened, Miles,” Sarah’s voice was different somehow; still hers, but colder, each word feeling as sharp and icy to his ears as the steel to his skin. “I haven’t changed sides, I’ve always been on this side, you just never knew it.”
As if Sarah’s words opened a floodgate, realizations overcame Miles. All of the things they had been through, those happy memories and shared pains… All of them were fake, it was all leading up to this grand betrayel. It now made sense why Shyal always knew his every move. Sarah had never left his side, she knew everything he did. And he thought he owed her for that.
“Right, father?”
“That is correct, daughter,” said Shyal, a hungry predator preparing to make the kill.
The last thing Miles heard was the unsheathing of metal from its hiding place. But the blade concealed within Shyal’s cane did not kill him; by the time it reached him, Sarah’s betrayal had already ended his life.
 

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